Why is it that we are so afraid to be wrong? What keeps us fight others to accept how we see things that go against their belief systems? Are we just stubborn and have to be right or is there something deeper going on that won’t allow us to let go of how we are seeing things?
The feeling of being wrong is not a surface issue but one that goes deeper inside of us. It hits a spot that goes far back into our childhood that the messages we received as young children was that we were not good enough. Sometimes our parents would compare us to other children who did better than we did, and it made us feel inadequate. If we thought we did well in school, they wanted us to do better so we never got the validation that we were good enough. This started to affect everything we did, and it became a way to see ourselves in just about everything we did.
This feeling of not being good enough created an anxiety in us that was unbearable at times, and we would lay in bed at knight fearful of the outcome of the next day. Do we still do this today? Are we still that child who was afraid of not being good enough? Does everything we do have a right or wrong attachment to it?
We must fight our past and see that it is we who have decided that we are not good enough for we have been hanging onto our pasts as if we are glued to it. That was the past, but it does not mean that it is who we are in the present. We must step back and look into our past as if we were an observer and see the damage that was caused. Some by our parents and some by us. We must decide that enough is enough and even though we cannot forget the past we must let go of the messages we received from it. This is today and it is up to us to see the good inside of us. No one is telling us that this easy, there are so many demons there from our past, but so many of them we did not create. Underneath all of our low self-esteem that was created in the past is so much anger and it is exactly this anger at ourselves and at others that we must let go of in order to find our goodness. Can’t we see how this anger has been hidden by our constant feeling of not being good enough!